I want a house. I want a small, me-size house if there are no children in my future with a garden and pets. And very bright colors.

But I've been thinking about children a lot lately. I certainly don't want to give birth. I like my body, thank-you-very-much. Pregnancy leaves stretch marks, muscle tears, and some very painful damage to other *ahem* "areas". Uh, no. Ain't happening. Tattoos and piercings and peroxide on my scalp are one thing. Pregnancy is a whole new level of pain.

And I don't like young children, like anyone under five. So lately I've been considering foster children and adoption. I like older kids. And I think I could be a good caretaker, if they don't need a new parent. I'm a good person, I'm responsible, I can relate to people and I'm not looking to indoctrinate or abuse anyone. I just think it would be important to give someone a place where they're safe and looked after.

That, and I don't exactly hate children in that age group. They're nice.

So this is all speculation. For all I know, I'll be dead tomorrow. Or I'll never have enough money to support another person. Or I might change my mind.

But it's a nice idea. I don't really want a spouse. So this could be a way for me to build a family for myself without having to do the whole "blah, blah settle down, get pregnant, blah, blah, blah" deal.

I don't know. Maybe my friends wherever I settle will be my family, will be enough. But I think I might still feel that I should help where I can. Give a little and all that. So we'll see.