I am getting more and more involved in several underground scenes, as I get older. I'm honestly enjoying myself too. The thing is, I kind of want to go to a goth club, now that I'm eighteen.

Because yes, I'm now eighteen, with a fresh bit of ink in my body and a lot of new oppurtunities. I can get into Yaoi Panel now. I can go to several venues that were previously closed to me. (Actually, DC clubs are open to all ages)

I can go to a goth club, at last.

At the same time, I'm really scared of going. What if I don't fit in? What if what I thought was _my_ scene, aka the Goth/Rock scene, is really not my scene?

This terrifies me.

So what have I done?

I've researched local goth clubs. I'm going to my second concert at the 9:30 Club. I'm considering my next tattoo and what to do about my red eyebrow piercing.

I'm defintely going to go to one, I know that.

But . . . I'm still bringing a friend, just in case I'm too scared to play with the grown-ups all by myself.